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06-24-2010, 12:52 AM
You are not a sex addict. You like sex and there is nothing wrong with liking sex. One of the important considerations for you is practicing safe sex. That means the guy uses a condom all the time and with no exceptions unless you want to get pregnant, contact a Sexually Transmitted Disease (STD), HIV, or AIDS. You feel ashamed of yourself for having sex with 5 different guys and you don't want to stop. There is a reason for you to stop. The reason being that you want to make sure you don't get knocked up in your teens, which is a distinct possibility as your body matures and your reproductive abilities increase as you mature. The signs are not the signs of a sex addict but they appear to be the signs of a girl who likes to be abused by more guys because you were sexually abused in the past. In effect, you are punishing yourself for the past sexual abuse when it was not your fault, it was the guys fault and you went along with it and now you feel guilty and blame yourself for not saying no. This punishing of yourself is manifesting itself in your accepting the guys asking you to have sex with them and causes you to not want to say no to them because you have a low self esteem of yourself and think of yourself as not being normal because you didn't have the guts to say no when the first guy sexually abused you. The cycle of punishment will continue until you make the decision to not punish yourself or feel guilty for the sexual abuse. You have the choice to feel and act guilty and punish yourself. I suggest you make the choice to not feel guilty, not punish yourself, and say no to guys who ask you to have sex with them. You will feel a new power when you say no and tell the guys that you don't want to have sex until you have a strong relationship and have love feelings toward a guy. This will help you not be an easy mark for the guys and you will be able to have a boyfriend with whom you may have feelings of love and want to enjoy sex with him rather than random sex with guys who don't have love feelings toward you and you don't have love feelings toward them. You are a female and your body is yours and you are in control of how you use your body. Do you want to be a sex object for guys who will throw you out when they are done with you or do you want guys to treat you with respect and not demand sex from you. This is your life and it is your decision as to how you chose to live your life. I will tell you that because your mother was a crack head when you and your twin were in the womb, you both will have the tendency to have addictive personalities, and that can include any type of addiction, drugs, alcohol, gambling, and sex. This is something you will want to learn more about and were you to feel that you don't want to develop addictive behavior you will need to undergo psychiatric therapy to help you learn what you need to do to not develop addictive behavior. Your life will become better were you to not develop addictive behavior and you will not be plagued with drug, alcohol, gambling, or sex problems or addictions. The choice is yours and the future is yours, and you have the choice to make the future better or worse. I hope you will make the right choice so you can lead a happy and complete life.
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