[Nikki]

For 3 years I have been dealing with pain. We finally found out the problem and I had surgery 3 weeks ago. It was surgery to correct some female problems and allow us to concieve. I am super devoted to my husband and very spiritual but have kept a deep secret about this pain pill addiction. I've been on Hydrocodone 7.5 and 10.5, also dilaudid (however that's spelt) and have cut back on the intake but still...I wake up thinking about them and by the time I go to bed I'm having panic attacks that I've taken too many. It's a visious cycle. My husband is semi-aware but not completley. He knows I have to take them periodically but does not know how many I actually take. I also take an anit-depressant (zoloft cuz it's baby safe) and sometimes take xanax if needed. I'm terrified of accidently overdosing. any adivise? I feel like I can take care of it myself with out professional help but I may be beyond that point. I'm up to about 6 to 8 dilaudid a day...is that lethal?

[Thriolith]

I'd have to say speak with your doctor? Centers for addiction and mental health do exist, your doctor should be able to recommend one.

[Answer Fairy]

Yes and no. Taken over a long period of time will cause internal damage, particularly to your liver. This is no different to being an alcoholic. It's not easy to stop. I'll bet there are a lot of idiots on here who will tell you to"just stop."If it were that easy, there would be no need for rehab centers.You need to make a decision about how you want to live your life. If you want children, obviously, you need to stop taking narcotics. Yes, the prescription pills are classified as narcotics. Opiates. You also need to get some support. I suggest NA (Narcotics Anonymous). It's not easy. You shouldn't have to do this all by yourself.The desire for pills never goes away. I quit 6 years ago and I still have days where I would kill for a Norco. I understand how you feel, but its entirely up to you.>hugs<

[Dreamscape]

Go to your doctor. They will give the proper advice on how to come off them. I really wouldn't take advice from yahoo answers when it comes to medication.You will also be offered help for addiction.

[Virginia W]

I take Hydrocodone for Fybromyalgia and a specialist said online he did not think the addiction was a problem long term. However if you are going to have a baby you most likely need to get off it.While I was researching that med I saw some sites on the list page that dealt with the addiction of it. So there is most likely one for what your other one is.If it was me I would go to a trusted doctor and talk to him about it. He can perhaps put you on something not narcotic to fill the gap until you wean off the stuff.

[ssr_bc_09]

It doesn't matter if you think you can fight this on your own or not, you need to talk to your doctor about it. One of my best friends has become addicted to heroin, and actually broke into our house and stole pain meds I was and still am on for chronic spinal pain..he is now in California in rehab trying to get over this, but the addiction will never leave him; it will only soften over time. I'm not implying that you are going to start shooting up, just that you need to get a handle on this now, before it hurts you and those you love. Good luck, and God Bless.

[featheritto]

at least you realize it. my mom has the same problem but wont admit it, she has 4 children (16,15,10,3) (im 16) its awful. just remind yourself you can lose everything and try and do some daily activities to get your mind of it. my mom has been this way for 3 years, when she cant get it through her doctor she goes to the e.r. vomiting and is in there for weeks at a time. shes so wrapped up in it she doesnt realize shes losing everything. my sister and i have been raising my baby brother, and we completely lost our teen life. we hate her for it and everytime we confront her she gets pissed and thinks we love dad more then we love her. i noe you didnt want to hear my sob story but my point is, your doing a good job by cutting back, dont do anything dramatic, go off it slowly, instead of 8 go to 6. then to 5, then 4, (you get the pic). if you cut back slowly then it wont hurt so bad when your completely off it. and its going to be killing you emotionally noeing that your getting less then what you want, but if you keep going eventually 8 isnt going to be enough, your body is going to adjust to it and your gonna want 10 then 11 then 13, and im pretty sure there is a harmful number in there.its good you realize you have a problem. take baby steps.i hope this helps.and i wish you the best of luck.