[ol'green eyes]

i have an addiction to prescription pills (codeine). i've been clean for 4 yrs but relapsed recently&each time i relapsed i used the drug for 2-5 months but i always got off of it. i was always too scared of progressing to where i'm in worst situations&lose everything i have, so at a point i just stopped using them. well recently i relapsed again. i was using it for about 1-2 months this time. then i left them alone a week&a half ago. now i'm struggling to NOT go back to it. i know this isnt something to be proud of,&i shouldnt expect anyone to be HAPPY about it but i AM STRUGGLING&i WILL BE struggling for a little while. i took steps all this week to get into outpatient addiction program&therapy. i know i need help,&i'm trying to get it. i told my boyfriend that i'm struggling with it&also that i've been using the pills longer than he thought i was (he thought i only used them for ONE WEEK). i didnt tell him the truth bcz he told me"not to tell him that i was high while i was around him", bcz he'll be VERY ANGRY, so i didnt tell him. when i told him about it altogether he was mad - telling me i CANT want to better myself if i'm using it, etc. - - i dont need angry&discouraging words right now even if he THINKS he's being supportive i dont need HIM BEING ANGRY&making it an issue of HIM being mad and HIM not being able to"see how slick i am"&so on - that makes me not want to tell him nothing&it makes me not want to be around him. i dont know what to do with him right now can someone help me please? bcz i'm struggling with my addiction&i dont need this from him right now.

[insurancelady82]

You're right in that you don't need him to be angry around you. In fact, I think it would be better if you broke it off with him so you can focus on healing your self. I don't think an out patient program is the best option for you either. I think that since you continually relapse, you may need full inpatient rehab.You need to help yourself, and focus on you. This stress from the relationship isn't going to help.

[~Crystal~]

Addict to addict ... You need to worry about yourself and not him. Until you better yourself you can't make him happy nor can you have a functional relationship.I understand why he is mad, but I also understand that you do not need fuel added to the fire. My suggestion would be to worry about getting and STAYING sober.