[KatH]

I need help,i am a studenti am addicted to codeine since i got here last yeari am also bulimic, but not to loose weight, just because i need to control something. been hiding this for about six years. it has recently over the past year become really really bad where i am puking at least 8-12 times a day. even at work. in secret.i dont really want to do anything anymore but sit inside and be on the computer b/c the codeine makes me antisocial. so i sit here, eat after a while, puke, then take more codeine.i have recently noticed i have damaged my throat...i am really scared, and i dont know where to go or what to do. I am afriad if i go to a hospital, they will just laugh at me and turn me away or try to give me medications which i donot need anymore of. i am not depressed i think, but i dont know b/c i have been on codeine all the time.i have tried so hard to stop the codeine and the puking...but i cannot do it on my own. and it has gotten so bad lately i cant think straight or fthank you for all your responses, as far as my throat, i just got sick...again today, and i could feel that something is cut and it is lumpy and i taste blood now for the past 2 days and constantly have to clear my throat...i am pretty sure its just blood running down into my throat from whatever has happened. and also, it is bulging out on my neck. i dont know what that part is called ....the thing that moves when you swallow, thats whats bulging out. does anyone have a recommendation for a hospital i should go to? or a doctor? sorry, at the moment i have basically alienated all m friends, so please, if you have some suggestions there, that would be helpful too.cheers

[sasha]

Whatever you do, you need to seek professional help. This is serious and I doubt very highly that anyone will laugh at you. Rather it be the hospital, rehab, or a counselor, you NEED help and you're not going to be able to get it sitting behind a computer.

[bizzylady2]

Print out this page with your explanation and take it to the hospital right now. Call your parents or a close friend that you can talk to and give them a copy of what you wrote. You need help. What you are doing can cause permanent damage to your body. It isn't anything they will laugh at. You are not the only one that has gone through this, but you need to save yourself. Go now!!